How many things a year can change
- laidart
- 31. 12. 2015
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It's almost midnight here and I feel nostalgic and meditative so here are some of my thoughts.
I can't believe it's been only a year! Not even a whole one since I was severely depressed, it seams so far away - I was on a verge of suicide actually - filled with dread and anxiety when they let me go from another job. "We can't pay you anymore, you have to go, sorry." Well so am I. What about the 3 years I was here that doesn't mean anything? Apparently not.
Anyway, I was starting over again, like many times in my fairly short life. What to do now? Well let's watch Youtube videos that should help me, right? You have no idea!!!! I met the greatest group of people on planet earth and possibly in the universe. They gave me confidence, strength, their friendship and advice and I realized I'm not completely useless.
Now after 10 months and countless hours of hard work in front of a computer screen and my camera, cause that's a hard work even though you wouldn't think so - I didn't - I'm not lost anymore, I call myself artist (wether or not I'm worthy of that and quality of my work I let the reader judge) which I would never dream to do before, I have a YouTube channel with unbelievable 175 subscribers who I love with all my heart and I can't even tell how grateful I am for them and I even think I found my new career in translation business. I've walked such a long distance since february and I have much more miles ahead of me but for the first time in a long while I kind of feel that everything might be OK soon.
Wether you want to call it fate, devine intervention or sign from the universe I now know it exists and I'd like you to believe it too. Please know that no matter how hard life gets and how dark a corner you find yourself in, there'll be light. There will be happines again and it will get better. You just have to do what you love, keep trying and find the right people, it doesn't matter that they live across the globe from you.
So as the old year ends and we have a new one around the corner I want to wish you all the best, peace and health, lots of love and happy moments. Appreciate the little things and live every day to the fullest - CARPE DIEM!!!! What are you waiting for? Go give someone a hug.
Stay strong my friends and have a great New Year 2016
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